We Got A Puppy!

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Hello everyone!

So, you can probably guess from the title of today’s post what I’m here to tell you guys about… Yes, Steven and I got a puppy!!

I am a dog person. Like, there is no other pet that could come close to giving me the same amount of joy that a dog does. (Also, I’m allergic to and mildly freaked out by cats, so there’s that.) I’ve owned dogs for as long as I’ve been alive, aside from like 2 months when i was 9 - which was just the period we had to wait before getting my next dog. I love dogs, but sadly, Steven hasn’t always. When we started dating, he told me that he definitely did not like dogs. When he was a kid, he got jumped on by an overly-friendly husky and broke his arm, so it turned him off dogs completely. However, I’ve spent the past 6 years convincing him that dogs are genuinely the best and while I give myself a lot of credit, I think spending time with my dog Miley made him realize that he truly is a dog lover.

So really, when we started discussing the possibility of getting a puppy earlier this year, it wasn’t really a hard decision.

Readers, I’d like you to meet Leia!

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I’ll definitely post more in the future about the whole process of getting our puppy (it was our first time going through this ourselves!), but I just wanted to pop in and introduce you guys to the newest member of our family!

Leia’s a Havanese, which is a toy-breed companion dog. Meaning she’s tiny. Very tiny. Right now, she’s a bit too thin - we’re working on it! - and she weighs about 3.9 lbs. We picked her up on September 1 when she was 11 weeks old. That’s a bit older than you would typically pick up your puppy, but as we were on vacay, we had to wait a little longer to take her home. Currently, she’s 12 weeks old and she’ll be 3 months old on September 13!

Of course, we named her after Princess Leia Organa from Star Wars. Once I mentioned the name to Steven, that was it. There was no other name that could fit this little fighter better!

Steven and I are absolutely THRILLED. Honestly, could not be happier. The whole process has been crazy, fun, and amazing - and tiring. We’re so excited (and a little nervous!) to be fur parents for the very first time.

I’ll update you guys on how the puppy life is going very soon!

Felicia x

Life Lately: The Busiest End to Summer

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Hello friends!

I just wanted to pop in quickly to let you guys know that there will be a bit of a lull in my posts for the next little while and to explain why! Basically, there’s been no point in this year so far that’s been as crazy as the end of August is about to be haha.

For starters, I’m headed to Disney World! Yea, I’m always there. So you may think, is that a big deal? Well, it is! Because we’re about to stay on-property at the parks. This has been a bit of a tradition for us for the past few years, ever since my boyfriend’s first on-property stay in 2017. It’s one of my favourite parts of the year as there’s something so exciting about getting to stay in the magic 24/7 and not having to go home at the end of the day to reality. We’ve stayed at Port Orleans French Quarter for the past couple years, which is where we’ll also be staying this year. French Quarter is 100% my favourite moderate resort. I just adore it. I had the option to stay at Contemporary this year but it was so much money and I love French Quarter so much that it seemed silly to not stay somewhere I truly love for less money. We’ll be staying there for 3 nights and while we’re there, I’ll be celebrating my 21st birthday which is very exciting. I won’t spoil what I’ll be doing to celebrate my legality, you guys’ll just have to wait and see once I post after the trip!

A few days after our Disney World staycation, we’ll be heading on a week-long Caribbean cruise! You may not know this about me, as I haven’t really talked much about it since starting my blog, but I love to cruise. My family are big cruisers. My parents went on their first cruise in the ‘90s and fell completely head over heels. My first cruise was a two-week-long Panama canal cruise when I was 5 - after that, how could I not be hooked? Back in 2015, I brought my boyfriend onto his very first cruise and now he’s just as obsessed as we are haha. This will be my 20th cruise and Steven’s 5th cruise. We’ll be boarding the ever-so-lovely Carnival Breeze which will take us around to tropical ports where I plan on tanning and drinking to my heart’s content lol. I’m very much looking forward to a week of relaxation before the school term begins.

After our cruise, Steven and I’ll be heading home (*sniff sniff*) but the fun doesn’t end there! We will be embarking on quite possibly our most exciting journey yet in September… But I won’t spoil that just yet ;)

I hope you’re all having a marvellous August. I can’t wait to chat soon!

Felicia x

A Charming Day in Niagara-on-the-Lake

I fully believe that Niagara-on-the-Lake is one of the dreamiest places in Ontario.

I adore this little town. Situated just a bit away from Niagara Falls, it’s like stepping back in time into a quaint 19th century town with all the boutiques and cafes your little heart could ever desire. I wish that I could spend every day walking along these beautiful streets with their little shuttered windows and beautiful brick buildings.

Steven and I recently had a week off from uni for midterms so we decided to take a day trip out to Niagara-on-the-Lake. Fortunately, despite it being the dead of winter in Canada, the sun came out, the weather was tolerable, and we had a positively lovely day! Since it’s one of the most photogenic places I’ve ever seen, I took tons of photos and thought I’d share them all on the blog today!

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We only visited Queen Street rather than exploring some of the historic areas throughout town, so we spent our day just popping in and out of the little shops that dot the street. There are a ton of local businesses along Queen St which I’ve come to appreciate even more since moving to a small town that’s reliant on their local shops.

One of the shops that isn’t a local business, however, is the Cows Creamery which is an ice cream shop. It’s actually a chain of parlours from Prince Edward Island that has somehow made it out to Niagara-on-the-Lake (and according to their website, Beijing too!) I love the ice cream there however it was far too cold for a scoop so instead we decided to check out their merchandise. It’s all hilariously cute, as most of it is cow-related pop culture puns. It sounds so hideously tacky (which it is) but I swear it’s funny! They actually had a line of pun-free crewnecks that were really nice and subtle, so I bought a large grey one that I intend on living in from now on lol.

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Every time I visit Queen St, I’m in complete awe of this building. You know me, I’m a history lovin’ gal. The Old Court House is from the mid-19th century and it’s a wonderful addition to this main street. I adore.

Walking down the streets and taking in all the sights was really the most fun ever. It was also really lovely to just spend a day alone with Steven, just chatting and enjoying the sun. Vehicle traffic on Queen St isn’t so crazy so it makes for a very quiet, stress-free stroll. They also have horse-drawn carriages that come down the road quite often which is beautiful. I love horses so much and every time they pass, I make Steven stop in the middle of the sidewalk so we can watch them pass!

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It’s simply not a trip to Niagara-on-the-Lake unless I visit Just Christmas. In fact, one of the reasons we went down there was to go to Just Christmas. Established in 1985, it’s known as Canada’s oldest year-long Christmas emporium. This store is MASSIVE. It seems like it goes on forever, up and down stairs, around corners, into little loft areas. For a Christmas fanatic (like myself), it’s a dream come true.

Just Christmas is a crucial part of my family’s Christmas traditions. Each member of my family has their own personalized red ornament ball that we put on the tree every year. It’s something that’s been a tradition for my family since before I was even born. Although my boyfriend has one (he got one within the first couple years of us dating), we realized just last Christmas that our dog doesn’t have one! Yes, we’re that crazy dog family that needs an ornament for our pet… So Steven and I went to get one for her haha.

We also bought a very cute marshmallow snowman ornament for our mini bedroom tree and a Jon Snow ornament for our main tree because he’s a cutie and it was only $3 lol.

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I’d always heard about the Prince of Wales Hotel growing up and I’ve seen it from afar but for whatever reason, I’ve never gone to see it up close. So this time, I insisted we went down that road and I’m so glad we did! The hotel was established in 1864 under a different name, being renamed the Prince of Wales after the Duke and Duchess of York (later King George V and Queen Mary) came to visit in 1901. It’s positively huge, not to mention beautiful. My little history heart just couldn’t take all the historic importance and the 19th century architecture. As we explored the exterior (I doubt we have enough money to go inside the building), I just kept saying “oh my GOD” really loudly and dramatically which gained me lots of looks from posh elderly patrons of the hotel and restaurant.

Also, it’s apparently extremely haunted. There’s a whole tale about an American soldier going into a wooden house which once stood in the spot of the hotel during the War of 1812. He allegedly mistook a woman looking out the window for an enemy British soldier and pierced her with the end of his bayonet. Not a great time. There’s even a Trip Advisor review that’s titled: “Great. But totally haunted.”

I won’t be staying there any time soon.

That being said, if the prospect of American phantom-soldiers intrigues you, Niagara-on-the-Lake is the place for you. The whole place is apparently spooky (i.e. haunted) as hell. Most old towns are considered haunted, especially ones that were ridden with war deaths. They even do walking ghost tours which I may gather the nerve to do one day lol.

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By the end of our day on Queen St, I was starved and Steven lured me into Nina Gelateria & Pastry Shop… Okay, so maybe it wasn’t that much of a struggle to get me in there. I had been there before for gelato with my godmother years earlier, but hadn’t ever tried anything from the cafe menu. Immediately after seeing they made crepes, I was hooked. Steven had shockingly never had a crepe before!! How have we been together 5 1/2 years and he’s never had a crepe? Luckily, I fixed that. I ordered us a Chocolate Hazelnut Banana crepe which is essentially nutella and sliced bananas. It was heavenly! Massive, too. If you happen upon Nina’s one day, keep in mind that the crepes can easily be shared between two (or more) people. But they’re extremely delish.

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Finally, we reached the end of our trip - sad. I should mention though that the parking on Queen St is… interesting. It’s primarily street parking which means the dreaded parallel park. Aka I made Steven drive and park there lol. There is limited parking behind some of the shops but those are the first spots that are gone. For parking on the street, you have to pay a parking meter - $3 an hour. We stayed an hour and a half so we paid $6 for two full hours as there’s no half-hour options, which was fine. But it wouldn’t accept our credit card! We tried both of our credit cards, our debit cards, and nothing. So we had to use change which we didn’t have so Steven had to go into a bakery to break a twenty while I waited by the car and prayed a cop didn’t come by to give us a ticket. It took a longgg time. So keep that in mind! Bring change!

We actually parked right in front of Starbucks which was fabulous as it meant I could easily pop in and grab a caramel macchiato before hoping in the car for the long drive home. Let me just say that this is the cutest Starbucks I’ve ever seen! Whenever I go inside, I talk about how badly I want to live in Niagara-on-the-Lake. It’s a very small, cozy cafe located in an old white building with beautiful green shutters and a green door. The barista who took my order was so friendly and nice. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day!

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And here’s my outfit that I wore to Niagara-on-the-Lake! Would it be a day out if I didn’t take a snap of my outfit, really?

Beret - Joe Fresh
Jacket - Forever 21
Sweater - Gap
Jeans - Garage (I only ever wear Garage High Rise Roller Jeggings, they’re so flattering and comfy!)
Ankle Boots - Madden Girl by Steve Madden

Have you ever been to Niagara-on-the-Lake?

Felicia x

2018: A Year in Review

Can you believe that it’s almost 2019?! We’re just hours away by now and it’s completely blowing my mind. It will never not be weird to me how we an go from being in one year to being in the next in just the blink of an eye. Crazy stuff!!

For my last post of 2018, I thought I’d finish off with a review of my favourite memories of 2018! A lot has happened this past year… In some ways, it’s been simultaneously a not-so-great and a great year. But no matter what, I think it’s always good to look back on the past year and see what you’ve accomplished!

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JANUARY

Happy New Year!! We started our year off with a bit of a blip, as we had a near-crisis where we thought that there was a gas leak in our house/garage. We called the fire dept and stood outside for over an hour, just to find out it was a false alarm! Shortly afterwards was one of my favourite memories of 2018 however, as it was when I got my first car!! I’m sure you’ve heard this all before, but in case you haven’t, it’s a used grey Kia Soul which I call Maggie (obvs, after Maggie Smith).

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FEBRUARY

In late January/early February, my mum and I snuck away for a ~super secret~ girls trip to Orlando. At the time, no one outside my family knew that I wasn’t in uni so we kept it very discreet. Our trip was soo much fun and it was really cool seeing the Festival of the Arts at Epcot, as I’d never seen that before!! Also in February, Steven turned 20 which was really really exciting!

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MARCH

Please look at this adorable picture of my pup sleeping in front of a fireplace omg. March was spent putting major work into my blog as this was around the time that I decided I wanted to take blogging more seriously. I was looking into different hosts, weighing out my options, and was starting to delve into social media more! This was also the month that my boyfriend bought his very first car!

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APRIL

April, things were starting to warm up (slowly, but surely). My boyfriend and I headed to our uni for an end of year celebration with our really good friends, who I hadn’t seen in ages because I hadn’t been in school. It was such a great time - albeit a tad freezing!! (This is such a bad photo I KNOW)

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MAY

As school was over for my boyfriend in late April and we had a month to spare before I left for Florida, we decided to spend some time exploring the south-western area of Ontario where my town is. We visited Ancaster, Port Dover, and Niagara-on-the-Lake. It was so much fun and I absolutely recommend acting like a tourist in your own town because you won’t know what you’re missing until you do!

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JUNE

June is when my family and I left for our summer trip to Orlando. Although I was still having a hard time with my anxiety in the summer, June was a lot of fun and we got to do quite a few things. My mum celebrated her birthday at the end of the month and we all had dinner at Be Our Guest to celebrate!

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JULY

The month started off with a road trip down to Orlando with my mum. I’ve never been huge on long-haul drives but we did get to go through Tennessee which is my fav state and it was as beautiful as ever! We also celebrated my dad’s birthday and my boyfriend came down to visit - I was so happy to see him, and the four of us go to see my beloved Sam Smith in concert (he was incredible, that man’s got TALENT).

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AUGUST

In August, my boyfriend, parents, and I went on a staycation to Walt Disney’s Port Orleans French Quarter! We had such an amazing time and for the first time in a while, my anxiety was actually at a manageable level so that made the whole trip that much more enjoyable. I also celebrated my 20th birthday in Disney! You can read all about that vacation here.

SEPTEMBER

September marked one of the momentous events of the year: my big return to university. I was so nervous to go back to school, but luckily the transition went quite smoothly! If you haven’t heard about my decision to take a year off university, you can read about that here. My boyfriend and I also celebrated our five-year anniversary, for which he gifted me a beautiful Belle promise ring!

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OCTOBER

October brought one of my favourite of our annual traditions and that is our trip to Disney where we do the Food & Wine Festival and Mickey’s Not So Scary Halloween Party!! These are two of my all-time favourite events in Disney World and I’m so grateful that I’ve been able to spend them with my boyfriend these last few years. This year, we dressed up as Mary Poppins and Bert in honour of Mary Poppins Returns coming out this year!

NOVEMBER

November signalled the beginning of stressful/busy times. Fortunately, at the end of the month, we did get to do some of our favourite Christmas traditions like our town’s Light Up Night (which Steven sadly wasn’t able to attend) and Santa Claus Parade. Mostly, we spent the month preparing for the upcoming exam season which was especially stressful for me this year as a) it was the first time I’d be writing exams since spring 2017 and b) it was my first time studying for exams whilst living with my boyfriend, which makes for a very different study atmosphere.

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DECEMBER

December has been the busiest month of all this year. We made a few trips out to Mississauga to visit Steven’s family, hosted my family’s annual Christmas party, wrote exams (I had two; Steven had four), and tried to keep ourselves sane with the mix of school pressure and upcoming holiday season. It was also the most triumphant month for my anxiety as I was told by my therapist that we would start cutting back on my appointments and I also did a number of anxiety-inducing things that went really really well!!


This year, ultimately, started off really crappy, but ended up turning into a really successful second-half of the year. Although I had a rough time, I proved to myself that with a bit of help I could overcome all my struggles and actually find what I wanted from life and how to get it, which was so so important. Hopefully, next year will all around be a better year than 2018 and I’m really looking forward to seeing what it has in store for me!

Felicia x

Where I’ve Been

Hello my lovelies!

Wow, it’s been awhile, hasn’t it? I’ve really neglected my little corner of the Internet and I won’t bother making up excuses why. Things have just been crazy and I’ve not been terribly good at time management as of late. But I’m back! And I promise to be more diligent. I thought today I’d just kick off with a bit of an update post, to let you all know where I’ve been and what I’ve been up to recently.

(Also, I’ve spent a chunk of time lately going through and revising my old book review posts. You can now find them all under the tab, Books > Book Review, or right here, if you’re interested in giving those a read.)

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At the end of August, I made my bittersweet return home from Florida. On the one hand, I was so sad to be leaving Florida, my home away from home but on the other hand, I was eager to get back to my proper home and get back into the swing of things. My journey home was actually a bit of a milestone moment for me, as it was the first time that my boyfriend and I travelled by plane without my parents. Taking a flight alone just the two of us was huge - if you suffer from travel anxiety like me, then you’ll get why. I was so nervous about the flight, but it all went very smoothly and I’m glad to have finally gotten it out of the way.

Coming home was also a pretty big deal as it meant returning to uni. As I mentioned this summer in my ‘Why I Took A Break From University’ post, I decided to take a year-long break from school after my first year, to sort things out and put the focus on my mental health. Returning to uni was so. freaking. nervewracking. But it went quite well! I’m only taking 3 courses this term - a Jane Austen literature course, a Women’s History course, and a Mental Health & Addictions course - so my course load has been lightened a bit and I can put more of an equal focus on my studies and my mental health. If you didn’t already know, I’m working towards my Honours BA in English & Cultural Studies (a four-year program I’ve completed a year of so far) and I’ve recently added onto that a Minor in History!

Unfortunately, being back in school means less time to spend with my boyfriend. Even though we live together, we have very opposite schedules. Most days, as he’s pulling up into the driveway in his car, I’m pulling out in my own and we just wave at each other through the window. He’s also got a far heavier course load than I have, what with being a Psychology major and all. Needless to say, it’s been difficult to make time for our relationship lately. That being said, it was recently our 5-year anniversary! We’ve been together for a quarter of our lives. Time really does fly. We had a lovely anniversary dinner at a local restaurant, had a few drinks, and just enjoyed some time alone. For our anniversary, my bf gifted me the Enchanted Disney Belle diamond promise ring. It’s absolutely stunning!! I was completely speechless about how thoughtful and genuine of a gift it was.

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I’d be remiss if I didn’t mention that this past weekend was my town’s annual fall fair! I love these fairs, you guys. They’re so wonderful and autumnal and nostalgic. My town is extremely small (at least to my standards, 10,000 is small) and very proud of our history - the fair has been running since 1873 so the historic aspect of the fair is really important. As my town is in the country, it’s only right that our fair is a typical county fair, complete with a demolition derby, midway, and tons of competitions of farm animals, food, needlework, and even pumpkins and hay! I never imagined I’d live in such a small town, coming from somewhere like Mississauga, but I could never leave the small town life now. I love the country sooo much.

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On a very exciting note, I finally got my hair done! Early this year (like maybe February?) I got a tiny bit of blonde put into my hair, but decided that I wanted some real blonde highlights for the summer, to lighten up my hair. I’d gotten the blonde highlights put in last summer as well, but after I had it done again this year, I just wasn’t feeling the blonde as much as before *shrugs*. So when I came home from Florida, I got my hair dyed back to a solid colour for the fall, except this time I went a shade or two darker than my natural shade and now it’s a dark chocolate brown. I LOVE IT. It feels sooo good to be a brunette again. I feel very autumnal, indeed.

So that’s really it for me. I’ve babbled on for quite a bit here haha, but oh well! In the next few weeks I’ve got a lot going on, including another trip to Florida for my reading week! We’ll be heading to the Epcot International Food & Wine Festival and Mickey’s Not So Scary Halloween Party and, as usual, I’ll be sure to post about those - especially my super-secret costume for Not So Scary!! So keep a look out for that :)

Hope you’re all doing well!

Felicia x

20 Years

I'm twenty years old y'all!! I know, it's a shock to me as well. I recently had my birthday on the 20th of August. Two whole decades of my life have officially gone by. I know to a lot of people that seems like nothing, but to me, it's completely mind-blowing that I'm now in my twenties. It's been a long time coming, since my friends are already 20! 

I was stuck wondering what sort of post I should write up for my 20th birthday. A '20 things I've learned in 20 years' post? Or a birthday tag, maybe? I really couldn't decide. But I remembered a post I saw a while back where someone had reflected on what they'd learned since their last birthday. I thought I'd do a bit of that, but also mix in a few things I've learned through my life as a whole. 

So kick back, relax, grab yourself a snack. Maybe get yourself a fancy drink - it is my champagne birthday, after all! 

A reason, a season, or a lifetime

I'm sure you've heard the saying that people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. I know it's super cliche, but it is true. In twenty years, I've come across people from every category. And honestly, sometimes it can be pretty hard to determine who is who. Some of the people I thought were 'lifetimes' ended up being 'reasons'. In some cases, it was someone who was in my life for a short time that impacted my life positively; and others, it was negative. But the lessons I've learned from those not-so-great relationships have moulded me into the person I am today and I've learned to be grateful for that, instead of just fixating on how things could've gone better.

Mental illness doesn't make you 'weak'

This was a lesson that took me so long to learn. Despite being completely supportive of other people's mental health, I have always been really hard and unsympathetic towards my own. In the early years of dealing with my anxiety, I had someone say that I was 'weak' for suffering from mental illness, whereas those who don't suffer are 'strong'. As if strong people can somehow fight off mental illness...? It was obviously completely ignorant and plain wrong to say. But being a young teen, it really took a toll on me. Mental illness doesn't make anybody weak. In fact, people who suffer from mental illness are some of the strongest people out there. As much as I hate dealing with anxiety, it has definitely made me a stronger person over the years. 

Friends who stick around during tough times are the ones who'll last forever

I've been through a lot of ups and downs in my life. Like, a lot, a lot. In that, I really came to realize who my true friends are and not only that, but just generally who I wanted to be in my life. Friends should make your life better, not worse. That was something I had a hard time coming to grips with. I'm the kind of person who hates to rock the boat. But there were just certain toxic relationships in my life I had no choice but to step away from, for my own happiness. With that being said, there've been friendships that have really bettered me and my life as a whole. I saw something online awhile ago that said something like, friends you've just met in uni know you better than friends you've known your entire life. And honestly, it couldn't be more true for me. The friends I've made in uni are incredible and those friendships have been life-changing. 

Don't let anyone deter you from going after your dreams

Let me say it again, just in case you didn't hear me... DON'T LET ANYONE DETER YOU FROM GOING AFTER YOUR DREAMS. I don't care what your dream is - doctor, psychologist, beekeeper, car mechanic. Anything. If it's what you want to do with your life and you know it'll make you happy, then do it. So what if someone says that chances are you won't make it in your career field? The only way to know is to try. You've got a long life ahead of you, especially when you're 17 or 18 and leaving secondary school. Don't go on a career path that makes you miserable just to make you other people happy. Take it from someone who's been there; it's so not worth it and you'll definitely regret it later. 

Hope you're all having an amazing week!

Felicia x

Why I Took A Break From University

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I had always heard about gap years, through old high school Facebook friends, YouTubers, and bloggers who spoke about their fabulous years off, travelling or finding themselves. It had never been something that had really crossed my mind, up until I found myself at a point where there was really no option for me other than to take a gap year myself. 

I started university in 2016, just a couple weeks after turning eighteen years old. At the time, everything seemed to be coming up roses for me. My boyfriend and I would be attending the same university, my dream school, where I would be studying Social Work, which seemed like a good idea at the time at least. My boyfriend and I would be bussing in together, which wasn't so bad because I could read (or nap) on the drive. I was learning to drive, I'd made a bunch of amazing friends, and I was loving the university. 

Everything seemed to be picture perfect. At least, it did from the outside. 

Somewhere around Christmas time during my first year, I woke up one morning and realized I hated my program. I wasn't enjoying any of the Social Sciences geared courses and I absolutely knew that I was not the kind of person who could handle the stress that came along with a job in Social Work. I suddenly realized that all this time, I'd been lying to myself. I had wanted to be an English major forever but after years of people telling me it was a bad idea, I just gave up on it and decided that I loved Social Work instead because it was what was considered a "practical" job. Good idea, right? This is what happens when you force seventeen-year-olds into choosing their futures. 

After days of talking it over with my parents and my boyfriend, and countless e-mails to academic advisors and English department heads, I was transferring into the English & Cultural Studies program. Well, technically transferring. I wouldn't be officially in the program until the spring when every first year applied for their majors. In spring, I was accepted into the English & Cultural Studies program and everything seemed to be finally settling into place. 

But it wasn't. My first year was, let's say, turbulent. Around the beginning of the second term, I realized that my anxiety was starting to get bad again. Being me, I did what seemed like the best option: hide my anxiety from my friends, family, and loved ones, and continue on with life like nothing was happening. In reality, people were starting to suspect that something was wrong - but it seemed like it was mostly a fear of moving, as we were moving house around the time that second term was finishing up. But it wasn't. Halfway through second term, I started skipping classes, for no other reason than I was petrified to walk inside. I would sit in my favourite study spot on campus and stare at my phone, counting down the minutes until a specific class or, worse, my English tutorial. Sometimes, I'd get up and walk to class, only to make it halfway and give up. But eventually, I stopped trying at all. I'd tell my boyfriend that I was busy in class, meanwhile I was really working on essays on my laptop on the opposite side of campus. 

By the very end of term, it was increasingly obvious that something was wrong. My parents went away on holiday in April, near the end of the school year, and my boyfriend came to stay with me. I would drive us to the bus stop so we could bus to school every day. But the very first day, I drove to the station and told my boyfriend I couldn't go with him. I dropped him off, went home, and got back into bed. The next day, it was the same thing. I went to exactly one class all week, for five minutes, just to pick up a graded essay. The majority of the week, I just laid in bed and watched Thirteen Reasons Why. Miraculously, my grades didn't founder. I actually finished the term with an overall cumulative average of 8.2 which was insane for someone who not only didn't go to most classes but also thought she was going to fail her Linguistics course. Honestly, things would have probably gone on just fine if that were all. Except it wasn't. I took one English course, in second term, to allow me entrance into the program. And I finished with a C+. For me, that was a death sentence. I cried for hours, despite the fact that most people I know in uni have had more than one C marks before. But it hit me hard. I sat on that all summer long and, probably, that's part of the reason why second year went so badly.

That summer, as a whole, was horrible. My anxiety had reached an all-time high and I was miserable. I never left the house, I had countless panic attacks, and most of all, I was terrified about going back to school in the fall. As September came closer, my anxiety got worse. But nevertheless, I started classes up in September, hoping for the best. Luckily, this year, I had moved closer to school and had my license, so get there was easier as I could now drive. Unluckily, I was unable to even get in the car to drive. My mum (God bless her soul) drove my boyfriend - who was now living with us - and I to school every day. I went to classes (mostly) and acted like things were better. We started looking into my school's mental health services and quickly realized that it was not going to be an easy process. But I started seeing a professional for my mental health for the first time in six years (let that sink in). And I was doing fairly well in my classes. 

Until, one day, I sat in my kitchen with my mom and boyfriend, sobbing because I just couldn't understand what my History professor wanted from an essay. There was entire booklet of instructions and none of it made sense. Every time I tried to start writing, I wrote something awful, nothing near my usual quality of writing. After spending about four hours working together with my mom, I sent in my essay. And that was the first time we seriously talked about me leaving school. But it wasn't until my mom dropped me off for an English lecture and I called her ten minutes later, sobbing, asking for her to come pick me up, that we decided it was probably necessary. I dropped out of all my classes for both terms in the middle of October, after coming home from Reading Week break in Florida. 

Taking a year off was the hardest but best thing I've ever done for myself. At first, I really hated it. I felt like I was missing out on everything, like I was being left behind while all my friends went on with their lives. I hated that I was going to still be a second year when my friends were third years. But eventually, I realized that it was necessary. And most importantly, I realized that I was putting so much unnecessary pressure on going to university, that it was becoming a chore to me. It wasn't something I enjoyed anymore. I had spent my whole life building everything up to four years and a degree on a piece of paper, that I had never really stopped to think about what I really wanted. I do want to be a student, I do want a degree - but frankly, it isn't the be all and end all of my life. I want to be a writer. I want to write books. Do I need a degree for that? No. Anyone can become a writer, if they have the passion for it. But I want a degree, for myself. I enjoy being a student; I enjoy learning and reading and hearing what other people think. Realizing that made university so much less daunting and actually exciting. 

I'm not saying that taking a year-off is a necessity for everyone or that it will magically cure your problems if you do it. But for me, it was the best decision I've ever made. And it just goes to show that frankly, you don't need to decide what to do with your life when you're seventeen, or eighteen, or even nineteen. Hell, I'm almost twenty and I'm still figuring things out. You have your whole life in front of you, and it's not worth it to spend your life stressing about doing everything the "right" way. 

Until next time!

Felicia x

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If We Were Having Coffee

I've seen a bunch of bloggers doing posts called If We Were Having Coffee over the last few months, where they do a bit of a life update in more of a chatty way, and I decided that I needed to try it out for myself! I think that blog posts can be a very one-way street sometimes, but these sorts of posts kind of make it feel more like a couple of friends sat together chatting about life - over a cup of coffee, of course. 

So, grab yourself a cup of coffee, tea, hot cocoa, or whatever you'd like, and let's jump in!

If we were having coffee... I'd likely be having an iced caramel macchiato from Starbucks. It's one of my favourite iced coffee drinks for summer, well that and the iced white chocolate mocha. I've recently had my very first iced caramel macchiato of the season (by recently, I mean today) and it was heavenly. I love my iced coffee y'all.

If we were having coffee... I'd tell you about how my boyfriend has gone home to live with his parents for the summer, while he works in Toronto. It's been super weird not having him around much this month as he's only been able to visit once so far. It really goes to show how quickly you get used to having someone around all the time. Luckily, I'll get to see him again this weekend, then in July and August for our vacations together!

If we were having coffee... I'd tell you that it was recently my one-year anniversary of living in my new house. We officially moved in on May 5th, 2017. Can you believe it? It's been a whole year! It's been a total whirlwind of a year, especially since the first half of it was spent moving in and organizing things to feel like home. I can honestly say now that this place feels 100% like home to me. I love this house, this neighbourhood, and especially this town.

If we were having coffee... I'd tell you that I'm getting very excited for my trip to Orlando, as it not only means that I get to be in my favourite place in the world but also I get to spend a lot more time reading. I get the majority of my reading done by the beach or by the pool, where I have very little distraction. Am I the only one? 

If we were having coffee... I'd tell you that this past weekend was Victoria Day here in Canada! If you don't know, we have been celebrating Queen Victoria's birthday here for a very, very long time, and it's considered a statutory holiday for us, meaning that we get a day off for it. My town actually did it's first ever annual fireworks display for the holiday last Sunday which was a lot of fun! It's definitely a new tradition for us, for sure. 

If we were having coffee... I'd brag a little bit about how I fixed my iPad, which hasn't been working for the last year and a half. I was so fed up that I was starting to even look at buying a new one (mine's about 8 years old, so it was justified). The biggest issue, among others, was that I wasn't able to log into my Apple ID which obviously controls like everything. I finally realized that it was because somehow the date was wrong on my iPad, so it was messing everything else up. I was quite proud of myself for figuring it out, as I'm literally the least technologically savvy person in the world. 

If we were having coffee... I'd tell you that I've been having the worst time trying to force myself to pack for Florida. I don't know why, but packing is such a chore for me. My dad is leaving before my mum and I, as he's driving the car down, so I have a bunch of stuff to send with him but I just can't be bothered to pack them. The possibility of me forgetting things grows greater with every passing day, haha.

What have you guys been up to lately?

Felicia x

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Strolling Through Port Dover

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Welcome back loves! The weather has been absolutely gorgeous as of late!! I cannot believe we've finally been having consistently nice days. It's honestly the talk of my town, no joke. Anywhere you go, you can guarantee that somebody is going to bring up how nice the weather has been.

The other day, my mum, my boyfriend, and I decided we would do a little day trip together as my dad was out of town. Port Dover is a very small lakeside town on the northern shore of Lake Erie. My parents took a trip out there last year after we moved into our new house, and they absolutely loved it so I thought that since the weather was nice, I should take a trip down to see what all the fuss is about!!

It's about a forty minute drive down my county's main highway, which literally cuts down the middle of a bunch of towns so we had really lovely views of some cute small towns on the way there.

As soon as we got to Port Dover, I decided I loved it. I'm a huge sucker for small towns (obviously, since I moved to one) and especially local boutiques and cute restaurants. Port Dover is full of them!!! We walked down the main road right by the beach and popped into about a dozen small shops with clothes, soaps, home decor, antiques, basically anything you could think of. I'm obsesseddddddd. I took so many pictures of all the different shops we stopped at, so you guys can also enjoy the literal heaven that is Port Dover.

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It was just so beautiful and it had that really lovely small town feel (a woman came into a shop with her dog and the shop owner told us that he comes to visit her every day and she leaves out water for him omg I'm crying). It was a pretty lovely day to visit, although it was super windy which was not good for the dress I was wearing and the locals saw way more of me than they'd bargained for haha.

On our way back home, we stopped at a little local restaurant, The Argyle Street Grill. I've passed this place about a hundred times before and finally suggested we popped in there for a late lunch. It was soo good, even though I didn't even love my meal haha. My mum and I ordered drinks as my boyfriend was lovely enough to be the DD (thanks babe!!) and they were amazingggg. My mum had the strawberry margarita and I had a spiked raspberry lemonade, which is probably now one of my fav drinks ever. For my entree, I had a small bowl of asiago chicken linguine that was not my fav and a bowl of Caesar salad which was reallyyyy good. It was the perf way to end off the day, and I'll definitely be heading back there for dinner sometime!

What I Wore:
• Polka Dot Wrap Dress (x - out of stock in blue)
• Nine West Crossbody Handbag (x - similar)
• NYX Liquid Suede Cream Lipstick in Kitten Heels (x)

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Enjoy your week lovelies! 

Felicia x

That Time I Nearly Didn't Graduate High School

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Yep, you read that right. And it's not clickbait or anything. This is the actual story of how I quite literally nearly did not graduate from high school. This is a pretty lengthy story, so I'd suggest grabbing a cup of tea or coffee or hot cocoa (yum) and getting cozy. Comfy? Okay, let's do this.

Basically, this has a longgg backstory, so bear with me for a sec.

So my high school was a bit of a shit show when it came to course selection. And by that I mean that course selection was less of selecting the courses you would take the following year, and more of listing off the courses that you had hoped to take and then praying that you would be able to take it. They should've named the whole process something more fitting, like "Course Lottery". There was not a single year, save for grade nine, that I got into all the classes I had planned for. And not because the classes were full, or because I didn't have the prerequisites or whatever. Nope. It was because the classes I wanted to take kept getting the axe. Literally, at least five classes I had selected were dropped during my four years of high school.

It was the same thing every year. I'd get called down to the office at the end of the school year, weeks after sending in my course selection, and I'd come to a conference room full of other unlucky students, sheets of course outlines strewn across the table, and a few guidance counsellors there to inform me that, yet again, the courses I'd chosen for the following year were no longer available. Imagine my reaction when I walked in one year and had them say, "You've got it the worst out of anybody - three of your courses have been dropped. That's a new record!". Three out of eight courses in one year had to be replaced. I should've received a gold medal for Unluckiest Student of All Time. I spent a half an hour trying to decide on courses while every single person in the room stared at me sympathetically.

Forcing me to choose new courses in a limited amount of time without my parents there to consult on it was kind of a death sentence. It usually ended with disastrous outcomes, like taking grade eleven Chemistry, after failing the chemistry unit of my grade ten Science course. However, the real prize winner was grade twelve, when I was called in individually to my guidance counsellor's office to choose a new course. She basically informed me that I had two options: 1) to take a course at my school, out of the few available courses: gym (no), chemistry (GOD NO), and exercise science (was she even trying??), or 2) to take a course online, through another school district. Wait. I could do that??? Apparently! The world was my oyster - well, at least, Ontario was. So she showed me a bunch of courses that I could take and, feeling the pressure, I decided on Philosophy. Did I want to take Philosophy? No. Did I have any idea what Philosophy was even about? No x2. But hey, it wasn't gym. My guidance counsellor got in contact with the other school, which was in London, Ontario, and set up for me to take this class online. I got a login and a website URL and I was sent off to figure it out on my own. What could go wrong?

The course itself was surprisingly fine. I wasn't about to become the next Socrates or Descartes, but I did get a 90% in the end so I felt pretty good about myself. I had a few issues with the teacher, who claimed that I didn't hand things in when I had proof that I did, but it was sorted out eventually. I started to suspect that something fishy was going on when I realized that my grade for the course hadn't shown up on my midterm report card. I went to the office to tell them and they assured me that they received the mark but it wouldn't show up until my final report card. Okay, sure. They just reminded to come to them to make sure they'd received my mark at the end of the semester. So that's exactly what I did. And they said they got the mark and all was well.

Flash forward to graduation. I had this weird feeling all day. Yeah, I was anxious because I had to stand up in front of all the kids I went to high school with on a stage, in high heels, which is a disaster just waiting to happen. But there was this weird feeling, too, that I couldn't explain. Our graduation was held at a performing arts centre in the downtown area of our city. When all the students arrived, we were guided upstairs to this really big room which was used as a makeshift dressing room, where we would receive and dress in our caps and gowns. They had these long fold-out tables where staff were handing out packages according to our names. Basically, you got your cap, gown, and a little cue card which had your name on it. On the back of the card, it stated whether or not you were an Honours student and if you had any extra awards. When you went up to cross the stage to get your diploma, you'd hand the card to the announcer and they would say your name and awards. Pretty simple, right? So I get my little graduation set and join my friends to start getting ready. All my friends are talking excitedly about the awards they'd received, so I look at my own card. And there's nothing there. All it says is my name. I just kept flipping over, back and front, praying to god that I missed something. But nope. At this point, I'm panicking, hoping this some sort of a joke or something. I turned to one of my friends and said, "There's nothing on my card - no Honours or anything" to which they replied, "Well you clearly just didn't get Honours." So, peeved that the assumption was that I didn't get the grades and that this wasn't a mistake, I just said, "Uh, I finished with an 89%. I definitely got Honours." I was horrified and embarrassed because now I was the only one in my group who didn't have Honours and no one even though I got it in the first place. I worked my ass off in grade twelve. What was going on???

We were piled up into the theatre a bit later, where we sat in alphabetical order by last name until our row was called to line-up to cross the stage. My group was eventually called and we went to cross. I handed my card to the announcer and as they called out just my name, I gritted my teeth and tried not to cry. After a minute or so, they brought us out to the lobby to collect our ~real~ diploma (opposed to the fake one that they give you on stage) and the picture of our graduating class. I got my folder and headed back to my chair. As soon as I sat down and looked at the folder, I knew. I didn't even have to open it to be absolutely sure that there was no diploma in there. Just a thin sheet of paper. I sat there for the rest of the ceremony, trying to act cool in front of my friends, all the while trying to hold down a panic attack. To add insult to injury, they tossed their caps while I was outside, not getting my diploma. As the ceremony came to an end, my parents - who were sitting a few rows up, diagonally from me - turned around and gave me a thumbs up, as if to say "You did it!". I just looked back and shook my head.

You can tell by my face that i'm not impressed lol

You can tell by my face that i'm not impressed lol

When the ceremony was over, the students exited first, followed by the parents. I got out into the lobby and the first person I saw was my boyfriend. He walked up, all happy, and I just kept shaking my head, saying over and over, "I need my parents. I need to see my parents." So my parents come out, along with my boyfriend's parents, and as soon as I saw them, I burst into tears. Right there, in the lobby at my graduation, in front of all my high school classmates. I just kept saying, "I didn't graduate." So they're all confused like wtf of course you graduated. I handed my dad the folder and was like, "It isn't in there. Please look for me. I can't look at it." So he took out the sheet of paper which basically said, "Congratulations on graduating from ---- Secondary School. You technically graduated and all, but we're going to hold onto your diploma until you send us proof that you completed your online Philosophy course." I swear to god, I have never seen my dad so pissed off in my life. He stormed off, looking for my principal, while my mum and my boyfriend's mum tried to comfort me. I refused to take any pictures for a long time, as I was feeling pretty sorry for myself, standing in front of everyone sobbing (not that anyone actually noticed). But then all of a sudden, I just wiped my tears and said, "Okay, let's do this." My boyfriend and I took a bunch of pictures together and you'd never be able to tell that I'd been sobbing five seconds before. #talent

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In the end, my dad gave my principal a LOT of shit for it. They tried to blame it all on me at first, saying that by taking an online course in another district, it was my responsibility to make sure that my school got the grades. Which would've been a fair point, had I not done exactly that months prior to graduation. They had even confirmed that the school had the grade in their system. So they apologized and said my dad could come in the next day to get my report card, my diploma, and my Ontario Scholars honours diploma. What killed me the most though was the fact that instead of getting in touch with me beforehand, and saying that they hadn't yet received the mark, they decided to instead let me fake graduate and make it all way more convoluted. Cause that makes sense????

In the end, I graduated with an 89% and I was an Honours student, and all was sorted out. And it's something to look back on and laugh about now because it was so perfectly ironic that my school had to do just one last crazy thing to me before I graduated. But it's still pretty disappointing that I didn't get the satisfaction of standing on stage in front of all my peers, with someone announcing that I got Honours. It's like there was nothing to show for all that hard work that I'd done - isn't that what graduation is for???

So that's the story of how I nearly didn't graduate! Super stressful day but a helluva story now, haha. I don't do a lot of these storytime sorts of posts - or any at all - but I hope you enjoyed it!! Let me know in the comments if you want more posts like this :)

Felicia x

Friday Thoughts: Getting Back into Things...

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Hi everybody! As lovely as my holidays were, it's definitely nice to be back to blogging on a regular schedule. And to end off my first week back to blogging is my Friday Thoughts post!

  • Monday was an absolutely crazy day. My family and I walked outside of our house to find rushing water throughout the entire garage. It looked as though we'd had a gas leak. We went into full-on panic mode - grabbed the dog, called 911, and ran across the street. One hour and two firetrucks later, we found out it was actually a water pipe that had burst and was mixing with gas that was leaking from a can my dad uses to fill the snowblower. It was so terrifying but thankfully it wasn't anything in the end.

  • This dreary weather has already begun to get me down... I'm so eager for spring weather. Thankfully, we've had a huge bout of rain and warm-ish weather which has melted most of the snow. This summer-lovin' gal is soo over winter.

  • I've been recently binge-watching The Royals with my boyfriend and mum, and New Girl on my own. I had started to watch The Royals awhile back but then forgot about it. We've finally nearly gotten caught up. But I've been especially into New Girl. I love Zooey Deschanel, and especially love her as Jess Day.

  • On Wednesday, I got a chance to go out and have brunch with my very close friend who I have not seen in well over a month. It was so lovely to catch-up over my favourite breakfast, eggs benedict. I always love reuniting with friends, especially when I haven't seen them in forever!

  • My mum got a chance to rummage through my grandma's old photo albums this week whilst visiting her in Hamilton. She took some pics of the best ones, and that night we took a trip down memory lane, where I realised from photos like this one that I've got the same hairdo now as I did when I was a kid lol

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Well, that's it for this week. I hope you all have a marvellous weekend!

Lots of love

Felicia x

Holiday Catch-Up

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Hello everyone! How are you all doing today? I'm currently writing to you from the comfort of my sofa in Florida, where it is drizzly and freezing outside - not the sort of weather I was hoping as my send off. I'm also feeling quite poorly, as I've got a sore throat and a wicked earache today. But since today is my last day of vacay, I thought it'd be a good opportunity to catch you all up on what I've been up to on my Christmas/New Year's break in a journal-style post.

My vacation started on Christmas Day. My family did our usual Christmas morning thing - waking up early, having egg sandwiches for breaky, then opening presents. Then we cleaned up quick and hustled on over Mississauga, where we spent an hour hanging out with some of Steven's family. It's always nice that we get to see them on Christmas, before we head off for the holidays.

Around noon-ish, we said our goodbyes and headed to Buffalo, New York to catch our flight. We normally fly out of Buffalo as it's a) cheaper and b) way easier than travelling from Pearson Airport. This year, we flew with Jet Blue which was a god sent cause they have those little tv screens on the back of the seats that play tv shows and films. I was thrilled to find out that they were playing The Santa Clause on Freeform as I hate flying (despite years of air travel experience) and it was a nice distraction for my anxiety.

When we got to Florida, we had our second part of our Christmas tradition - more prezzies and a screening of The Polar Express. A perfect ending to a wonderful Christmas.

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On Boxing Day, we headed over to Disney's Grand Floridian resort - aka my favourite Disney hotel - for brunch at the Grand Floridian Cafe. I absolutely love the Cafe. The eggs benedict is very yummmmm. I always love walking around the Grand Floridian and 'oohing' and 'awing' over the wedding pavilion! We spent the afternoon monorail resort hopping so we could see all of the Christmas decorations. I love to see all the trees and especially the Grand Floridian life-size gingerbread house.

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We also popped into Disney Springs to see the Christmas Tree Trail!

Of course, we made a trip to Magic Kingdom on our trip. It was the first chilly night of the trip, but still, it was bearable. Gave me an excuse to wear my favourite holiday Olaf sweatshirt, with my new Christmas Mickey ears. We got to ride Haunted Mansion and Jungle Cruise - which was Christmas decorated and they called it Jingle Cruise which was GREAT. And no Magic Kingdom trip is complete without watching the Happily Ever After fireworks on Main Street with a Starbucks coffee in hand!

Unfortunately, my anxiety popped in to visit on the night I was supposed to be going to Epcot - my favourite Disney park - and I had to have a stay-in night instead. Boo :(

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But the next day, I made it out to Hollywood Studios for the evening and we had a ton of fun despite freezing our asses off!!!! It was about 14 degrees Celsius which is super cold for Florida and I was wearing a t-shirt, a cardigan, and jeans - yet I was frozen. I ended up buying a super cute Stormtrooper sweater AND a Minnie & Mickey Mouse blanket which I wrapped around me. We pretty much just walked around, had some coffee, and then watched the Star Wars fireworks show - which was soooo cool. Every time I saw Leia, I pretty much cried.

New Year's Eve was spent the way it always is for my family. A big dinner at home, a round of Cards Against Humanity, and watching Dick Clark's Rockin' New Year's Eve when the ball dropped. Usually, we get to play Cards Against Humanity outside in our backyard but it was like 9 degrees out this year so we had to stay indoors which was kind of a bummer. But we made the best of it! On New Year's Day, my parents went out for dinner with their good friend who lives in Orlando, as they do every year. My boyfriend and I stayed in, ordered some pizza, and watched Riverdale in our pjs. The perfect night!

Now I'm at the end of my trip. Sad :( Today, I was lucky enough to get to pop out to go to Books A Million, where they were having a 'buy 2 get the third free' sale. I was in literal heaven. I was on a book buying break for all of December because of Christmas coming up. So now that I'm free of that, I'm ready to buy every book in sight! I purchased The Girls by Emma Cline, My Not So Perfect Life by Sophie Kinsella, and Paris for One & Other Stories by Jojo Moyes. I'm already forty pages into The Girls!

I hope everyone had an incredible holiday break! I'll be back to my regular scheduling of posts by next week.

Felicia x

Reflecting on 2017

Happy New Year everybody!!

2017 is officially behind us. Hasta la vista! My final year of being a teen is gone. Yikes.

Every year, as a new year is upon me, I like to reflect on the past year. It's always good to reflect on the good times, even the bad ones, before you move on. I thought I'd share some of my favourite and some of my not-so-favourite moments of 2017 with you guys!

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Moving House

The first half of this year was a total whirlwind. It was full of moving boxes, tape guns, and bubble wrap as my family prepared to move out of the home I grew up in. The move was a huge adjustment. Moving from your childhood home is rough, I can definitely say that with certainty haha. I was pretty uneasy about the idea of leaving my house, my hometown, and the life I was so familiar with. But, in the end, moving away was an amazing decision for myself and for my family. It introduced me to a town that I absolutely adore! And I’m so in love with my house. It’s been a crazy, exciting experience all around.

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New York City

New York City. Wow. It’s one of my favourite cities in the whole world. Back in 2009, I visited for the first time and fell head over heels in love with the city. And ever since my last trip in 2010, I’ve been dying to return. This spring, my family finally booked another trip back but this time, we brought along my boyfriend, a NYC newbie! I was so thrilled to be back in New York City, especially since I’d be seeing the city with my boyfriend and seeing him experience the Big Apple for the very first time! Fun Fact: When I was about 12 or 13, I actually looked into attending NYU because I was so obsessed with the idea of living in the city! (Spoiler alert: it’s a lot of money lol)

Read about my travels: here, here, here, and here

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Nashville

One of the highlights of the year was definitely our visit to Nashville! I’d never been to Nashville before and neither had my mum, and although we were only in the city for a day, it was wonderful! For me, visiting the Johnny Cash Museum was a dream come true (in fact, it was why we chose to do this quick trip into Music City). I love Johnny Cash and June Carter - their music is basically the soundtrack to my life these days. Getting to learn more about the Man in Black and the love of his life was so incredible and one of my favourite things I’ve ever gotten to do!

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Disney World

Of course, Disney has been a huge part of my year, just like it has been every other year! I think my love for Disney grew even larger this year. If that’s even possible! I have a newfound admiration for the parks, the resort, and all things Disney-related. This is probably partially because for the first time in nearly a decade, I got to stay on-property at Disney’s Port Orleans French Quarter! It was mine and my boyfriend’s first-ever trip alone together as a couple which was so exciting. It was loads of fun to show him around as his family never stayed on property and together, we got to experience all the things about staying at the resorts that I loved so much as a kid. We’re already saving up for our trip in 2018!

Friends & Family

This year, my relationships with my friends and family have become so much closer and so important to me. When you’re struggling with mental illness, as I have been, it can be so hard to keep up with everyone you love as you’re constantly feeling blah. But my friends have been so amazing this past year. They’re the kind of friends you know will be with you through thick and thin - you always know they’re by your side, no matter what. I’m so grateful for everyone, but especially my parents and my boyfriend. I honestly don’t know what the hell I’d do without them!

I am so eager to see what 2018 has in store for me. I'm not a firm believer in resolutions - in fact, I hardly believe in them at all - but I definitely have a few things I'm going to hold myself to in the new year, which I look forward to sharing with you all!

I hope you all have a very fun, very safe New Year's Eve. I'll talk to you very soon!!

Felicia x

What I Got For Christmas (+ Life Update)

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Hello everybody! Merry Christmas to you! I hope that you all had a wonderful day yesterday with your family and your loved ones. I love to read other people's 'What I Got for Christmas' posts. I don't know about you, but there's something so lovely about hearing people so excited to share what they were gifted. I know that some people find these posts to be braggy, but I don't think that at all. I love haul posts, and why should these kind of posts be any different? I def don't want to come off as a 'show off' or anything. I am genuinely so grateful for everything that everyone gifted me. I have the most generous, kind, giving family and boyfriend ever - not to brag or anything haha. If you're as nosy as I am about what others receive for Christmas, then keep reading to hear about some of the things I was gifted this holiday season!

Kate Spade Cameron Street Perforated Large Lanemy boyfriend gifted me this beautiful red-wine-coloured Kate Spade purse. I'm in love! It's the perfect size for day-to-day outings (shopping, going out for coffee, etc.) and I love that it has a shoulder strap. I especially love the perforated rose decal on the purse's exterior. My parents also gifted me the matching wallet so now I feel very put together when I'm out and about!

Soap and Glory The Righteous ButterI mentioned my love for The Righteous Butter back in my September Favourites post. I won't go too much into this one since I've already done so in my favourites post. My parents slipped this into my stocking this year and I was so jazzed when I found it in there! Haha. I already have a tub of this, but I asked for another so that I wouldn't run out anytime soon.

Funko PopsI got a ton of Funko Pops this Christmas. I've been making a list of them that I want to collect for months now and I've already got a whole set-up planned out in my head, so I'm glad to finally have some to get started with! I received Belle (Beauty and the Beast 2017), Maui (Moana),Dale Cooper (Twin Peaks), Lorelai Gilmore(Gilmore Girls), Rory Gilmore(Gilmore Girls), and Sookie St. James(Gilmore Girls). I have a lot of organizing to do!

Juniper BooksIf you've never heard of Juniper Books before, you're missing out. Juniper sells custom books and collections - essentially hardcover books with beautiful front covers and dust jackets. I fell in love with them earlier this year and received a bunch from my boyfriend for my birthday. But this holiday, my parents bought me three Charles Dickens books - Great Expectations, Bleak House, and A Tale of Two Cities from the Make Your Own Literary Classics set.

Origins Out of Trouble 10 Minute Mask to Rescue Problem SkinI am very very very excited to use this product! I have heard really good things about this face mask and Origins as a brand. You may know through previous posts that I have been having some pretty substantial issues with my skin as of late.... in short, my skin and I are not simpatico at the moment. Hopefully, this mask comes to the rescue!

Too Faced Peach Blur Translucent Smoothing Finishing PowderI just love Too Faced's peach products. Don't we all? The Sweet Peach palette is something I constantly reach for in my makeup drawer, and now I'm excited to add this powder to my collection. I've already used this a couple of times and I absolutely love it.

I cannot describe how grateful I am for everything I received this year. My parents have always been very generous with their gift-giving and I am so glad that I'm old enough to give back to them every Christmas season - with gifts bigger than 'DIY soup in a jar' (yup, my parents received that about 11 years ago - be jelly).

On another note, I thought I'd quickly update all of you on what's going on in my little world. Posts are going to be more disorganized for the next couple weeks as I am currently on vacay with my parents and my boyfriend in Orlando, Florida! I'm trying to write out some posts while I have a free moment, but obviously, it's been go-go-go ever since we touched down in Orlando on Christmas and I can't keep up like I usually can. I will write up some posts on what I've gotten up to and hopefully upload those soon... It's moments like these that make me wonder if I should start posting again on my YouTube channel.....

I'll def see you guys before the New Year but until then, have a wonderful holiday break!

P.S. I'd love to hear what you guys got for Christmas! Lemme know in the comments :)

Felicia x

Friday Thoughts: Pre-Christmas Mayhem

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I'm so very sorry that this post is up late! I'd meant to have it out last night but it just wasn't meant to be. I've had such a crazy week, I just ran out of time! But better late than never, I always say!

  • Christmas is so close!! Good gracious. December goes by in the blink of an eye, doesn't it? I feel like I've a million things left to do. Christmas time seems to be largely about being busy for me haha

  • I've finally seen Star Wars: The Last Jedi!! The four of us (my parents, my bf, and I) went out to see it at the VIP theatre on Tuesday because tickets were super cheap and we love to have a ~special~ drink with our film haha. Leading up to seeing this film, we rewatched the original 3 films plus The Force Awakens, so we were pumped. Despite mixed reviews, we all really really enjoyed it! I thought they did a good job at staying true to the Star Wars storyline, without seeming so repetitive. I also liked that there were some humorous bits, like the first bit of the film (I won't say what it was for the sake of those who haven't seen it yet!).

  • My boyfriend and I had a lovely dinner with his parents to celebrate Christmas in the middle of this past week. We decided to meet at a restaurant about 40 mins away from my house and exchange gifts. We had a great time, and I was very spoiled by Steven's parents as they gifted me a super cute Roots poncho with a huge loose turtleneck (which I love) and a pair of adorable slipper booties!

  • I'm loving the snow. As I've mentioned, I'm all for a white Christmas. I had a bit of a worry at the beginning/middle of this week as the snow completely melted away. Like, I'm talking most of the snow was gone. I was so bummed out, I was hoping for a miracle at that point. And then it happened! Thursday night, the snow came and there is now a fresh blanket of beautiful white snow on my town. I'm major heart-eyes right now.

  • My grandma came by later in the week to celebrate Christmas with my family, which was so nice as we haven't seen her as often now that she no longer lives with us. Since my boyfriend had to leave the next day to spend the weekend at home with his own family, we decided to exchange our gifts on that night - and my parents were so lovely as they did not only a stocking for me but also one for my boyfriend to carry on one of my favourite traditions to us. Some of my favourite bits from the stocking were the Too Faced Lip Injection Glossy in 'Milkshake', the heavenly Soap & Glory The Righteous Butter, and afelt pennantwith my university name on it, which I've always wanted. My boyfriend spoiled me rotten this year - he gifted me a beautiful wine-coloured Kate Spade purse and a Beauty and the Beast 2017 Soundtrack Vinyl Record which made me legit emotional lol

I hope you all have a marvellous Christmas Eve and Christmas Day! I'll speak to you all very very soon! Happy holidays :)

Felicia x